floating connector thesis process

Butterfly Kisses

a song that always touches my heart... used to be just a song that has touching tune, but now as i grow older & get to talk to my dad more this past year, like moving into a new season of life, i cld feel more of my dad's love for me... in ways that i used to not understand but now i do more and more...


Butterfly Kisses - Bob Carlisle
From the album Shades of Grace

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven, and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night, she talks to Jesus, and I close my
eyes.
And I thank God for all the joy in my life,
Oh, but most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony, daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma a little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, daddy, but if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on the cheek this time."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time ... Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly ... Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking, and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl." Then she leaned over... and gave
me...

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?" "Daddy, don't cry."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more. Man, this is what love is.
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

Walk By Faith

Walk By Faith (by Out Of the Grey)
From the album Remember This

I'm gonna walk by faith, not by sight
'Cause I can't see straight in the broad daylight
I'm gonna walk by faith, not by fear
'Cause I believe in the One who brought me here

I'm standing on the edge of whatever
Whatever He has planned for me
My next step will be measured
With confidence in the unseen

Like dancing on the edge of forever
I have nothing left to lose
Flying free as a feather
A vagabond in beautiful shoes

I'm moving through this great unknown
With faith beneath my feet
I take the road invisible
But I know Jesus goes with me
Oh, I believe, I believe
Because You gave Yourself to me
And I have nothing left to fear
'Cause I see it's You who brought me here
Though the road ahead is not quite clear
Still I know the way

Martin Ruiz de Azua

an internationally acclaimed designer based in Barcelona creating positive changes through objects such as, chairs, vases, alternative housing, electronic objects, interactive cushions, concepts for ecological futures...

(click on post title for his website)

My True Friend

Elias and Donn from Industrial Design Course have come up with a website to spread God's love...

Climbing Up the Slide With His Hands Holding Me

was at clementi this morning to get some model materials, i went to order my favorite porridge and thinking about how difficult it was to design and the studio is on tomorrow.

while having my porridge, i was watching this father and his little boy who probably just learn how to walk not long ago came to this playground.

The little boy runs around and the father was following after him to hold him once in a while when he was not in balanced and abt to fall.

the boy loves this red slide of playground, keeps trying to climb up the slide from the bottom. obviously, it was an impossible task to defy gravity for this little kid and he keeps sliding off.

the father got hold of him and his hand, and the boy walked up the slide joyfully.

was very touched by the scene and felt God speaking to me that's how He is to me... that when i go around in life, i don't really see him in front of me all the time, but He's always watching over me fr the back, and supports me when i was abt to fall.

and when i am doing an uphill task that seems impossible to accomplish, He'll be there to support and hold me to walk up "the slide" that i need to conquer, defying the "gravity that causes me to fall off".

found this song on animation mtv - called "愛永不止息" by 張蓬潔/ "天亮了不怕" 專輯. click on this post's title to see the animation at composer's website. Inside it, the girl was so sad and was falling when love catches her...

Glass Pendants

click on title for an external site of a poem on glassmaking & pics of more glass creations :)

牽手

THE song of the Day... :)

a hokkien song that i came across today that really touch my heart... (click on title above to hear the mp3)... i thot it's so timely for today, the V day... :)

all of us long in our heart to find someone who loves us for who we are and walks with us for the rest of our lives... Though im not married yet, but i thank God that Jesus is going to walk with me for the rest of my life... :) that He never bothers abt my weaknesses & inadequacies... but He would keep His love covenant with me for eternity.

hope that the song wld bless your heart... & may you find the eternal love of your life.

「牽手」歌詞創作緣起及背後故事

有幾年我住在台南安平，每天清早總有一對老夫婦，經過我的窗前：「少年仔！吃飽末？」是老人家典型的招呼。

聽說老先生年輕時任船員，雲遊四海，頗多豔遇，「逐個港口嘛有伊的相好。」老太太七十多歲了，回想起來猶「醋意」十足。

只是如今年老，兒女盡偕開枝散葉，唯一陪伴自己的，就是那個「從年輕吵到年老」的「牽手」，偶而，走遠了，還聽得見老太太對老先生「嘮叨」幾句的聲音！

而後聞知老太太因心肌梗塞忽然去世，從那時起，再沒見到兩人手挽手散步的身影。我常想到他們，多麼期盼齒牙動搖時，也有人讓我牽手，跟我去散步。

(Translation added by me. An interesting note - "牽手" in hokkien word also an intimate name for a man to call his "wife". While God says that He would hold our hands, He also calls us to be His bride... how beautiful is that! :))

牽手 (Hand In Hand)

阮有一個最愛的人 (I have a Beloved)
一生一世我欲和伊牽手做陣行 (One that I wish to walk with)
用伊的生命 用伊的青春 (Using all of His life, all of His youth)
無嫌阮是一個散赤人 (For He did not despise my poverty)

阮有一個最愛的人(I have a Beloved)
一生一世我欲和伊牽手向前行 (One that I wish to walk with hand in hand)
用伊的美麗 用伊的歲月 (With all his beauty, all his years)
甘願疼惜阮一世人 (For He is willing to love & treasure me for the rest of my life)

上帝啊! 感謝你(Dear Lord, I Thank You)
給阮一個最愛的人 (For giving to me someone who loves me)
用阮的生命 用阮的青春 (Using my whole life, all my youth)
一生一世為伊走縱為伊打拼 (I would go wherever He may go and work together with Him all my life)

牽阮的手 (Hold my hand)
做阮的主宰(Be my Lord)
阮欲一生一世和伊做伙 (I want to be together with You all my life)
牽阮的手 (Hold my hand)
做阮的主宰(Be my Lord)
阮欲一生一世愛著你 (I want to love You all my life)



詞：鄭金川 ／曲：廖雅慧／ 合唱編曲：蕭文凱
編曲：Jeremy Leber, Ronnie Lampas ／鍵盤：Jeremy Leber
吉他：董運昌／ 貝斯：Ronnie Lampas ／鼓：Ed Schaefer
打擊樂器：郭世欣 ／二胡：舒展 ／獨唱：廖雅慧、林世傳

Hang It On The Cross

Hang It On The Cross
Words by Lisa O. Engelhardt
Tune by Watson

If you have a secret sorrow,
a burden or a loss,
An aching need for healing…
Hang It On The Cross.

If worry steals your sleep
and makes you turn and toss,
If your heart is feeling heavy…
Hang It On The Cross.


Every obstacle to faith
or doubt you come across,
Every prayer unanswered…
Hang It On The Cross.

For Christ has borne our brokenness
And dearly paid the cost
To turn our trials to triumph…
Hanging On The Cross.

So what if I stumble?

God used what Ps Julie spoke at the EJ288 meeting last wednesday to renew my mindset abt the fear of failing archi/ thesis/ going into archi profession... There was a new overcoming mindset that I took on by God's word.

It is funny, before that during all the time that i struggle with thesis and all my fear of inadequacy/ inability to design, it was like you knew God's word is there, but somehow you just can't have that victory. i believe not only i had that frustration of having sense of defeat, but the family of God whom I shared with also probably are wondering why was I not able to JUST embrace God's truth in victory over my thesis & all the fears.

Well, I do not know why it's such way too. I probably had slightly more faith in ministry than in thesis work.

But i guess everything has its timing in God. My heart now fills with gratitude for what God brought me through over the past 6 mths for thesis - the many various ways that i expressed "what if i stumble" regarding my thesis & my fear towards design/ my tutor - has now been turned over for the glory of God.

For all the painful struggles i've been through, i appreciate the love & grace of God even more brought out by the song below -

"What if I stumble, what if I fall? (what if i fail my thesis & failed to be a testimony)
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all
Will the love continue? (lord i know your love wld continue...*tears)
When my walk becomes a crawl (Your grace wld be sufficient for me)
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

Father please forgive me for I cannot compose (or coomunicate to crit panels, or coming out with design ideas & drawings)
The fear that lives or the rate at which it grows (& allow that fear to have its foothold in me & grab hold of me)
If struggle has a purpose on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses" (MY GOODNESS, why on earth i did not realise that earlier?)

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling (ya... i doubted myself alot when i tried to design, wld i get to graduate at all)
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall (2 crits in 1 week & 2 months left to go)

I hear you whispering my name you say (thank you for sending the 'angel' to pray for me that day)
My love for you will never change never change (that in You i found my release, my sense of worth... SO WHAT if i stumble)

for all of you out there who's struggling & longing for victory over issues in your life - I know how you are feeling. God loves you even if you really stumbled. Don't be afraid to just do all the things you need to do. Start claiming your god-given victory with your mouth & take the actions to see that happening. Your Victory is on the way.
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DC Talk - What If I Stumble
From the album Jesus Freak

Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simple serenade for things I must afford
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains
For holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame

Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all
Will the love continue?
When my walk becomes a crawl
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall...
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that

Father please forgive me for I cannot compose
The fear that lives or the rate at which it grows
If struggle has a purpose on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses
Will I leave a deadly scar?

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall

I hear you whispering my name you say
My love foryou will never change never change

What if I stumble?
What if I stumble?
What if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort and my God.

Is this one for the people, is this one for the Lord?

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reflection 8 feb 06

Christian faith is a process of our alignment and re-positioning to align to God’s blueprint of our lives. Each alignment and re-positioning can seem challenging (coming out of comfort zone & old habits), surrendering areas of weaknesses and securities to God.

Though the process could be painful at times, it IS growth.

At times, we get occupied or confused with the bolts, nuts and worry about the orientation of a particular brick wall of our lives, forgetting that the ultimate builder and architect of our lives is God Himself. Especially myself, I find sometimes I worry too much for God. And that makes me trying to be god (which of course only brings myself unnecessary distress & worries.)

Though I may not understand why God tells me to put certain brick certain way (e.g. all the little things He told me before about what I would do), I know that someday when I sit on the lap of God in front of His blueprints, He’ll be able to explain all that to me. All I need to do, is to just follow by faith the Spirit’s lead each step.

Sometimes we have such perfect expectations of spiritual family (parents, siblings, relatives) that we get disillusioned or disappointed when they ‘fail’ us – not realising that they too are sinners saved by grace, like us going through the process of daily sanctification.

YC’s sharing today is a good reminder to me that – it is the “stablility” (if I may add 2 words) “in growth” of the family environment & parents that help growth of the children, not the “perfect-ness” of the family members.

(Try follow perfect spiritual leaders/parents who could do everything? (this does not exist by the way)
Or living with family members who do not seek growth but happy to just be where they have always been?)

REALLY thank God and I am relieved for what YC shared – if not, none of us would never grow or have the excuse not to grow because NONE of us are really good enough for each other to grow. (e.g. Facing weakness of a family member require more growth in the area of agape love)

I really loved & respect YCYP for being the best parents they could be to me. I really thank God for them as they have not just loved me, cared for me but most importantly willingness to discipline me which is never an easy or enjoyable process for any party.

They are god-fearing couples who love God and willing to align themselves to God’s leading in their lives. It is not that they are all-perfect people. I believe they are worth following not just for the strengths in their faith (which I am very blessed to be learning under them) and (I believe they have) the willingness to work out their areas of weakness with Ps Eugene & Julie (though they may not share with us about it) – ie. willing to continually to align and re-align with God as God surfaced areas of their lives that required changes.

To me, I do not really get too bothered by the imperfections of spiritual leaders when I experience them because I do see their willingness to be humbled, they have a heart of submission & accountability, willing to be disciplined by the physical & spiritual authorities. I know that I am quite safe under them, as I am under the covering of God. If anything goes wrong, God’ll have to be responsible for them and me.

One other precious thing I think I caught from YC over the past 1 year is that:

His willingness to forgo his own areas of interests/ ministry (e.g. basketball) anytime to do whatever it takes to help Ps Eugene & Ps Khong succeed in what they are doing.

Ps Eugene asked him to take Japan, YC choose to win Japan by faith.

Ps Eugene asked him to do the internet things, YC took it up despite of many other hats he has to wear already.

Hypothetical situation but I have no doubt - that if ever Ps Khong asks YC to join him for MOL in USA as an actor and though it may not be what he’s strong in or what he likes to do, YC would probably drop everything including his beloved BBall ministry and go over to help SP. That is Faith and evidence of a life worth following and ‘safe’ to follow as he is aligned to SP and the calling of God through SP for FCBC.

This is possibly one powerful part of G12 vision – it works both upwards & downwards in 3 generations – the steadfast commitment to the spiritual relationships ordained by God and helps the spiritual grandfather succeed.

I remembered the dedication service of Expo last year – we released Ps Kong into the nations. I believed it is and should be a collective action from us at every level. In order for Ps Khong or even Ps Cesar to be a blessing to the nations, we need to from time to time re-align ourselves – and this requires at times, forgoing our habits, preferences & likings by faith – but before the difficult part is over, I know that the growth would be with us.

Held

Natalie Grant - Held
From the album Awaken

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To Think That Providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling

Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
Were asking why this happens to us
Were asking...
Who have died to live, it's unfair

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

Chorus:

If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our Savior

are you looking for this?

Matthew West - Only Grace
From the album History

There is no guilt here
There is no shame
No pointing fingers
There is no blame
What happened yesterday
Has disappeared
The dirt has washed away
And now it’s clear

Chorus:
There’s only grace
There’s only love
There’s only mercy
And believe me it’s enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There’s nothing left now
There’s only grace

You’re starting over now
Under the sun
You’re stepping forward now
A new life has begun
Your new life has begun

Chorus:

And if you should fall again
Get back up, get back up
Reach out and take my hand
Get back up, Get back up
Get back up again

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all of us have failed at some point... sometimes everyday!
thank God, coz everyone of us can find such a place in Jesus' embrace...
by His grace we can overcome the mistakes and failures and fears.

are you looking a place such as this? are you looking for someone to accept you just as you are? that when you face him, there is no guilt, no shame, no pointing fingers, no blame...

Chris Rice

a music album tt i'd like to get... not sure if can get it in S'pore... really nice songs...

What If?

Nichole Nordeman - What If
From the album Brave

What if you’re right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you’re right?
What if it’s true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you
And what if it’s true?

What if he takes his palace in history
With all the prophets and the kings
Who taught us love and came in peace
But then the story ends
What then?

(Chours)
But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

What if you dig, What if you dig
Way down deeper than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions inside
That’s all you find

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Then folklore that must be told and retold

(Chours)

You’ve been running as fast as you can
You’ve been looking for a place you can land so long
But what if you’re wrong?

What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?